Thursday, August 25, 2011

Creating a foundation...

There is something that Ive been realizing a lot more lately...That in a blink of an eye, my kids will grow up so fast and be on thier own. i know there only 2 and 4 but Gods really been pressing on my heart what kind of Foundation am i laying for them?
Thier little eyes see everything and thier mommy(like most kids) are there role model, and someone they desire to model and be just like!

What am i teaching them? Am i just going through the everyday motions with a half smile on my face, praying that Jesus would return in the middle of the night so i wouldnt have to face waking up another day without Andy by my side?   yes plenty of nights....But God is really at work in my heart to start laying a foundation for my kids to model after....If I want my kids to be strong, have great faith, Pray when things fall apart and be happy and love often, guess what folks...

I have to be that way....Ouch!
Some days very hard to do...ok most days....
But if we seek hard, God will give us everything we ask for if its according to his will.....And i truly desire to not just walk through the motions anymore, but for my kids to see a (imperfect) mommy who can admit when she fails but see that desire to want to keep on going, to want to love well and  Truly see the blessings of God in our lil life...even if that means fighting....and fighting hard!

I want my children to say Mommy fought with all her might to give us the best possible life , not just give in when weakness hit....and we wanna be just like mommy!

Some days i feel so far from that person i long to be but with the help of my Lord, I can go from Glory to Glory/day by day to become the woman and mom  he desires for me to be and be the example that my kids want...no DESERVE!

 Some day my kids will be at an age where ive hoped and prayed that the things i have shown them and instilled in them will be enough for them to make the best choices in thier life...I will no longer be able to make those descisions for them any longer....scarry!

Andy left an amazing legacy....What kind of story are people reading when they look at our lives and how we handle hardship???


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