Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Happy Memorial Day Weekend




I had a great memorial weekend with my Georgia peaches!!!
Had a blast at Lake Lanier...and headed on the road monday to NJ for more fun vacation time....

Have a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend...Hope your spending it with ones you Love...

XOXO
Kelly Lynn

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Your Life,For Mine......


Today was the day I first heard this song , I Wept...
It grabbed at my heart.

Gods been bringing up parts of me that i havent fully layed down to him, and he's been dealing with me on being more abandoned, letting him have the fullness of my heart. Why I fight him sometimes , I'll never know....All hes asking of me is to take my brokeness and give me his new life to breathe in me from the inside out...A freer heart thats filled with joy, but I fight him so...

I think its change, change is scarry....Sometimes we feel its more comfortable in our misery than taking a leap of faith where you dont know the outcome. Because we know what our misery has to hold, what it feels like,and the pangs of pain that come along with it...but the unknown, even if we feel God is drawing us there..Its, well..."Unkown".... wed rather not take the chance and be happy in our crap! UGH

And its better to stay in what we know making peace in our pit than experience something we have no control over, right?
Wrong!

God wants our heart to be  fully alive in what were doing.In his TOTAL control....whether were hurting or joyful he wants us to rest in his ardent embraze, gazing into his eyes,taking his hand and saying Im willing to leave the old for the new....A heart that says yes.

That isnt compelled by Fear, but will fight for Love.

I saw a tweet my friend posted the other day...it said :

"Wholeheartedness is a gift...half-heartedness, a curse."

How much of my life have i given unto him my whole heart...Ouch...I give him pieces and I act like Im doing Him a favor....He's saying your life for mine...Give me your life so i can be radiant in you and through you, putting a new song and dance in your heart ....leaving fear and worry behind and trusting his perfect leadership even if its Jumping not knowing where were landing....

When i was young, coming down the stairs, the minute Id see my dad, I jumped in the air knowing hed catch me, without hesitation...

Thats the heart that pleases him...The heart that says God i dont know the outcome but i will trust your perfect leadership...I will leave a heart thats been hurting and broken for a chance to be redeemed and set free...

If theres one thing i could ask the Lord for , It would be to be his one dream...to be all that he planned when he created me!

Fully giving all my heart,trusting his leadership, even if it scares me,
Running and leaping into the unknown ...Laying down full control, to willingly abide in Jesus, knowing the outcome will be his desires for my life...

I give you the brokeness,the hurting parts Lord, to be closer to you,to have a heart that says yes...
Im running, about to jump,catch me Lord!!!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Heavy Hearted?

(Psalm 138:8)
The Lord will perfect that which concerns me....

This has encouraged me today, I hope it blesses you too!
God knows the deep concerns of our heart, and our emotions. And He has not forgotten you...You are precious dear one. Run to him with the cries and desires your heart longs for.

He is Faithful!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Pursuit...

It's only when the beauty and worth of our pursuit outweighs the cost and burden of letting go are we able give ourselves wholeheartedly.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

#Legit


I want a right heart for God to go with my right standing with God. The second makes the first possible if I die daily and search Him out.

David B. Tearin It Up...Never gets old!!! :)




Heard this live back in Jan....It set my heart alive.....
My SOng Of The Century!!!!!!!!!


Hes so Worthy Of it All!!!
Give him the Glory!!!

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Filling the space you left, I swear, it's bereft of my favorite feelings, but substantial to the work He's working. It's worth it. #

Sunday, May 13, 2012

COMPELLED BY LOVE
2 cor. 5:14

(14 For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15 And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.)





What compells us to do what we do? Loving God? Work? ministry? raising children?...etc...you fill in the blank, what compells us?
If its taking pride in what we do, being a good friend,pleasing others ,doing a praiseworthy job, reading every parenting book and doing exactly what it says we would eventually get burned out...
and just really exhausted.....


We know all the steps, but there are times when i admit i have become so familar in my faith and christianity,doing good works, being the best mommy i possibly can and running on fumes that i forget Its all compelled by Love and i need to refocus on the emotions of God and the way he feels for me and from that being compelled by Love in all i do...

Theres many times ive read (John 3:16)
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son..."
that it doesnt come alive to my heart...I feel dead on the inside and i need God to take me on a journey and remind me of just how much Love he feels for me....

In our pride,our darkness,our wickedness....putting a nice little christian label on ourselves, with one foot in our walk with Jesus and one foot in the pleasures of this world....we are complete and utter sinners. Jesus gave everything,so that we would be his inheritance and with him for always constantly winning our hearts back to him...and we run around on him over and over again......settling for lesser pleasures, cheating on him with other lovers, putting him on the backburner until the flame of our temporary pleasure runs out and were face down crying out to him again....Hes always there at the door of our heart winning us back to him over and over again, knowing we'll keep running around on him...

 Who does that?,There is no one like that on earth, that lets thier wife run around over and over again with all kinds of men, and with a heart free of offense and complete forgivenesss and full of love keeps winning her heart back again and again...

Thats what we do to Jesus and He loves us more than we can comprehend....
He sees us while we are in our utter darkness and he is overwhelmed by Love for us....looking past our sin, and seeing what he created us to be....and he says I Love and adore you...I gave everything to be with you, come drink deep.....

We need to truly drink deep of that very well, that while we were in our darkness,He gave it all, the ultimate sacrifice so we would have a way to be with him forever and that we make his heart happy! That he would do it all over again to know that we could be with him forever and ever!!!

When we drink deep of that, and truly understand Gods Love for us and let that wash over us.......that should be what compells us to win lives for Jesus, to love others well, to be reconciled to each other ...
We say God knows the desires of our heart...but do our desires match up with Gods desires for us?

Are we even open to allow God to change the posture of our heart to make our desires, his desires?... Or are we so set in our ways,with walls up,with the attitude of we want what we want..what can i get out of this? Rather than what can i give?..we have to be real and ask ourselves are we being compelled by love in this?

Will this bring glory to the one who gave it all for me?,.....If God wants me to love well in this life....are my desires pleasing to his heart to bring glory to his name?
do they line up with whats on his heart?

I am guilty as charged....


God forgive me for my selfish heart,with selfish desires....That I have allowed pride and fear to put walls up in my heart. I want you to have the fullness of my heart and the fullness of the desires of my heart....I want the desires of my heart to bring Glory to your name, to please your heart....I want to have a heart that says yes and no nos......break every fear and wall in me that keeps my heart from being ripped wide open, raw and vulnerable before you, that says God, here I am... Open with all my walls down. Put in me the desires of your heart and let me love well, loving the way you love, with a heart after you......

Thats really the way to fully live...compelled by love, a heart thats free of offense, running wide open to whatever God desires to put and awaken our heart with knowing that his leadership is perfect!

Let the love Of God compell you to Love well!








 

Thursday, May 10, 2012

I Hate Goodbyes

A few months ago...My pastor approached me about being support to a young widow...23 as a matter of fact. She lost her husband in a hiking accident in Iceland...and being a part of the house of prayer in Iceland got connected to IHOP-Atlanta, through Billys teachings on the podcasts, left it all and brought her and her precious 4 year old daughter Eva to America to melt in the prayer room...

It was such tragedy for her to kiss her beloved husband that morning  for him to fall off the mountain, and to get the news a search team has found your husband and hes being airlifted to the hospital....

His brain wasnt all there so as she held the hand of her husband, praying that God could turn this around at any moment...and she believed until the last breath that he could....( I remember that well)

He shortly was with God and another young mommy who loved her husband with all her heart, abandoned by death!

Dealing with the tragic despair was enough but to find out the day of the funeral as she was making arrangements and picking out his casket...(not my favorite memory)

She found out she was pregnant!

Oscar wanted to be a dad more than anything and her heart wasnt there, because she remembered the pain of raising up a child alone before God blessed her with Oscar...

Now he is gone and she has to go through it all again....bitersweet...knowing its Oscars child and a piece of him on this earth shell have beside her for always....

Why some have such a hard road, much harder than others , Ill never understand...But God, use it to shape us and make us Love you more and understand your heart,your desires!

To meet her was a blessing, to say i was support for her...id reexamine that!!!
These past few months, all the time we have spent together...Her passion for Jesus in the misdt of her despair has changed my life....At times where I was barely holding it together, her stregnth has challenged me and shaped me....

Me, being a widow for a year and a half, and her so recent....You would think I would be stronger, giving her stregnth ,words of wisdom, pouring encouragement upon her....and possibly i may have...
But more than not she has held me,loved me, and shown me how regardless of the pain that this life brings...

Rejection, broken hearts,abandonment...etc
How Jesus has suffered first, he knows the cry of our hearts, the pains, the anguish...and to set your eyes and mind on things above, and to have an eternal perpective...

That Its all about Jesus!!!
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Yes i knew that, and you hear it so much....but for it to come from someone who has shared in the level of your despair with tears in her eyes ...it really counts,it sinks in....this life is such a vapor, its so short....

But Jesus can fill every hurting and longing void and give you joy! even more than taking part of his beauty on this earth, and o the wells he gives us to drink from on this earth...Nothing compares to knowing that we can fall so head over heels in love, so abandonly emersed in the Love of God, holding nothing back because there is no Loss!!!

And thats just on this earth, a vapor , a glimmer of his love....Thats nothing in comparison than Eternity...lavishing in the love of God, and him lavishing in us without an end.....Never-Ending!!!

A beautiful romance, a never ending dance of Love with the one who loves us without condition, who gave Everything so we could be with him, with him where he is....

(John 17;24)

"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world.

And I Love, Love Storys but thats the Love Story of all Love Storys!!!

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I love knowing this!!! But im not going to lie....with saying goodbye to people that have stolen a piece of my heart this past year and a half, leaves me here in tears...And if the statement
"Better to Love and Lost, then better to never Love at all" is true?

Im Thankful......that God could take this heart of stone and make it a heart of flesh...
I want to spend the rest of my life loving well....Loving with abandon, to all God has blessed me with!

Not being selfish in my love, but loving with all my heart,not letting fear of loss hold me back, but taking a risk to pour out all my heart!!!


Goodbye Elizabet.....I truly Love You, and am thankful for your friendship and your support!